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10th September 2018 at 10:44 am #18514
Howdy partners. This is the morning after the night before. Although it was creeping up on me from the shadows the nature of a gambler is that it is (in my case; justifying my play, just another £20 and a £40 followed by a £50 into a chase of the big cashout that was never going to come) here is the reason why for me: I AM A GREEDY TWAT! I have no idea when to stop and the addiction to losing gripped me.
I knew this was going to happen because I have been here before. But the last time I was overtaken by the greed was when I was single for the umpteenth time. I was in a spiral of self-harm and didn’t give a shit back in my Army days and when I got out. But now that I am in a stable marriage with open communication about who I was and what can happen, I am a lucky man in life.
Back then I won on the rainbow riches machines with a £500 jackpot at the service stations and found myself chasing jackpots at every service station I stopped in until all the money that was won was redistributed into them plus my wages and including rent money and bills. But this time I thought I had it under control. ppffff! greedy twat.
I have been at it for around 6 months now and have been really lucky with wins. $4000 ish on PokerStars, £700 heart bingo, £400 video slots, £300 Casumo, £2000 Pokerstars again, £2000 Rizk, and others I just don’t want to bother trying to list. All from deposits weekly on a budget from my personal gamban, the missus. All was well and I thought I had the perfect set up. Until the just greed crept in again. I found myself not declaring my full wage and depositing in secret, then surprising her with wins of which, by the way, could have been double what I withdrew If I had stopped and just withdrew the initial win rather than chasing more like a greedy twat.
So now I come to the reason I am rambling on. I need to write it down and put it out there to deal with it head-on. I have had my conversation with the missus this morning and she agrees and is in full support of me stopping (lucky twat) before I destroy our world with greed getting the upper hand. I received an email from 32 Red saying I had a free £5 bonus in my account and thought Yes! it’s working my brilliant plan of signing up for every casino there is for the free stuff is working mwaa haa haa haa haaa. greedy twat! Anyway, I span it up to £10 and decided to play Exotic Cats and boom bonus feature after 5 spins and then 4 of them drop down for 4 wild lines with the middle line showing a lion and other symbols I cannot remember for £300 equaling 1000x. Get in there you lucky twat and even sweeter because it’s their fucking money what a result. Here we go let’s spin it up for moreeeee arggghh you greedy twat. This was Friday night and I did manage to get it to £570 in 3 withdrawal requests. Okay, so I was not verified properly at this site so I sent in all my documents and got verified. Happy days! Saturday comes around and it’s my footy bet day with a few quid left over for a few spins. Then greedy twat rears his head and says to the missus “here luv, you know I have that £570 on the way you couldn’t give me £50 this week coz all that is on the way”, “yeah I will send it over” oooh! £50 for extra chilli I am gonna have some fun today and I got excited and lost the £300 I managed to spin it up to without withdrawing that too on videoslots, Greedy twat! Now on showing her on Friday that the £570 was on its way the box showed I could reverse my withdrawal or some of it if I wanted. ‘fuck that I thought that is free money and very lucky to get’ no way! I checked back on their site it must have been at least 10 times from that Saturday until about 2200 last night and all the time the reverse box was showing as available and finally my greedy twat voice said “go on just reverse £30 and go back on Exotic cats” so I did, followed by £50 and then before I knew it I was bouncing from game to game trying to win it back until finally at 2 am it was an account balance of 9p There you go you greedy twat you got the result you deserved! Although I do think it was naughty of 32 Red to have a reverse function for at least 48 hours after the withdrawal request and no visible lock-in feature or something just to stop a greedy gambling twat like me giving the money back. I have to stop it! stop being a greedy twat! making excuses, justifying my position, manipulating my own brain and giving in to the fact (for me anyway) that I AM A GREEDY TWAT! and FUCK YOU 32 RED! for luring me into giving the winnings back knowing that I am a greedy twat.
Quick review on 32 Red the selection of games is appalling with none of my favourite games and that reverse capability is just wrong.
10th September 2018 at 11:13 am #18530Hi, @HooFlungPoo sounds like you had a very tough experience and I can definitely as most people will have done at some point chased a loss and it resulting in even more losses. Stay positive and take a break from it all and I don’t play at 32red but thanks for the review and the cash reversal is something we all dislike and should be abolished everywhere. Good luck in the future mate.
110th September 2018 at 11:23 am #18532Cheers, Yeah I am stopping I don’t wanna be sucked back in so I am going to make use of gamban or gamstop or just self-exclude.
10th September 2018 at 11:54 am #18533My flaw is multiple deposits if not hitting a 100X+ win early, so I limit my sites and weekly deposits to 20 quid now and value each spin, then go and do something else if the money is gone.
Regal Wins is another that takes 4-5 days to clear with 36 hour reversals, although I have been fairly lucky there it is always tempting to reverse.
110th September 2018 at 12:55 pm #18536Gamestop may be the way forward mate as it’s not a app it’s a government backed thing so there will be more and more casino signing up to it continually just to comply with the responsible gambling etc. As I said before good luck mate ?
10th September 2018 at 1:24 pm #18541As Seedy said gamstop is the way forward i was doing the same every payday at the start of the yesr ended up missing payments on most bills and about 4k owed on payday loans.
I love gambling and will gamble again but gamstop is a perfect way to take the temptention away while having a break and getting my finances sorted.
Good luck with whatever you decide to do next pal.
110th September 2018 at 2:26 pm #18544Yeah I’ve done it plenty of times, don’t think I’ve ever cancelled a big withdrawal and won more! Must be just a coincidence haha, what I do now is immediately after a decent cash out is take a break for 48 hours minimum, which most decent sites have facility to do through your account settings. Recently though playing on jumpman casino sites they do not have the facility to take a break yourself, you have to request it by email nd this can take up to 48 hours! I self excluded from the whole network after losing a withdrawal,
115th October 2018 at 8:35 am #21045Do gamban it changed my life! I haven’t gambled for 4 months except for every other month a mate comes round for a casino and piss up night we go quids in through his account so I still get a treat now and then but it stays fun and I don’t lose money I can’t afford. When I was just excluded at most casinos before I could always find a new site to sign up every time I’d had a few then the usual routine of losing shit loads waking up the next day kicking myself and instantly excluding from yet another one. Gamban is so effective the thought of searching for a new casino doesn’t even enter my head when I get get in from the pub now.
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