Its been hard!

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  • #97247
    themadchef WANTED $23
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    Hiya Everyone, hope your all well and staying safe. Its been a while, well over a year now since i posted on here. Have been reading a few posts and watching the videos. Purely for pleasure only however god i have so wanted to GAMBLE its unreal.

    As some of you have read my addiction to gambling post a year ago, the shit i got myself into was totally bonkers. The debt, lies, cheating, stealing and ultimatley losing my family was the final straw. Oh i did commit suicide and even fucked that one up! Luckily i have survived and slowly got myself back on track. Even have my youngest son living with me full time. However what i did to myself and others has cost me dearly.

    The urge of gambling has been strong recently, even though i am self excluded to all bookies, casinos, online sites even arcades that do self exclusion. I don’t even do the lottery or scratch cards. So where has it all come from? Is it the fact i am locked down and not allowed to do anything? Could it be that i want to see if my urge is strong and play a fruit or a FOBT? Could it just be my mind? I don’t know,  is it just my mind playing tricks on me.

    Now i think are watching these YouTube videos helping me? I feel i watch them for entertainment purposes only and even after wtaching them i don’t just think fuck me i could win that or shit he has done his balls in. Oh and before you ask, i watch maybe 4-6 videos a week so not a YouTube addict like my son. Maybe someone who reads this could give some advice, maybe i am missing the plot lol.

    The other thing i thought of is could it be down to my mental health state. Yes i am classed with severe depression, but have been on meds now for over 2 years. They do keep me sane and keep me happy, but still the dark side wants to creep in. I did speak to my doctor last year about coming off my meds. We tried this over a staggered period but by month 4 i had to go back up as my mood became very low, and even did not want to do anything.

    See i did always enjoy a gamble, stayed within my limits, then i fucked it all up. I have always admired people that have great self control of gambling, and the same for the people who have struggled like me and can have the balls to admit it (even if its too late)

    Now before i go and totally off topic my son tonight reminded me of a bombshell thats happening on May 20th and it coudl effect you. If you are a smoker like me and enjoy menthol, well its banned forever. Even all the crushball flavours, menthol tips even flavoured papers. So it looks like i am going to be vaping, become a alcoholic or climb the walls. My son thinks i can quit perhaps he is right.

    Take care everyone. Thanks for reading.

     

     

    #97261
    Lifeslots WANTED $58
    Outlaw

    Wow @Bustedflush

    #97263
    Xbobmad WANTED $734
    Outlaw

    What on earth are you going on about @bustedflush

    #97268
    Lifeslots WANTED $58
    Outlaw

    Doubt ‘themadchef’ has your email or has sent it there.

    Looks like a genuine system error that pinged the post to you.

    No harm done ?

    🙂

    #97270
    Lifeslots WANTED $58
    Outlaw

    I’ve spent thousands on software for my business and we get bloody glitches and errors all over the place.

    Its not like ‘backinamo’ has spammed you with casino offers or junk, just a random post.

    Delete your account and move on mate, don’t get angry 🙂

    #97271
    Haz40 WANTED $1,167
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    BustedFlush wrote:

    Lifeslots wrote:

    Doubt ‘themadchef’ has your email or has sent it there.

    Looks like a genuine system error that pinged the post to you.

    No harm done ?

    ?

    Well doubt all you like – it came to my sign-up email address which is private.

    System error?

     

    You have accidentally ticked the notify me by email box above submit reply. No one on the forum has your email address

     

    #97272
    Xbobmad WANTED $734
    Outlaw

    It’s not worth getting pissy over, if it was, I would be getting pissy with hundreds of spammers every week.

    It’s late but @seedy will be about in the morning and will work it out I’m sure.

    #97273
    Haz40 WANTED $1,167
    Outlaw

    Or you have subscribed to a topic accidentally

    #97275
    Lifeslots WANTED $58
    Outlaw

    Haz40, I think he got the original post to his email before replying mate

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    #97277
    Haz40 WANTED $1,167
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    Lifeslots wrote:

    Haz40, I think he got the original post to his email before replying mate

    Ah ok mate. I’ve had emails from threads before and I’d subscribed accidentally. Well i think that’s what i did lol.

    #97278
    Xbobmad WANTED $734
    Outlaw

    BustedFlush wrote:

    I will delete my account but it’s proving to be impossible. Can’t find out how to do it….

    @seedy will sort it in the morning. Log out and forget the place existed.

    #97279
    Rbreen91 WANTED $493
    Outlaw

    BustedFlush wrote:

    Rbreen91 wrote:

    Think you need to take your meds you spastic.

    Would love you to say that to my face, while i remove all your teeth with my fists you fucking pillock.

    Fuck up you wee fanny ? You couldn’t batter your wife.

    #97282
    Rbreen91 WANTED $493
    Outlaw

    BustedFlush wrote:

    I will delete my account but it’s proving to be impossible. Can’t find out how to do it….

    Because you’re a fucking moron. A paranoid schizophrenic moron. Meds time cunt.

    #97283
    Lifeslots WANTED $58
    Outlaw

    @Bustedflush

    Wouldnt worry as I’m sure @seedy will delete you off in the morning

    #97284
    Haz40 WANTED $1,167
    Outlaw

    BustedFlush wrote:

    I will delete my account but it’s proving to be impossible. Can’t find out how to do it….

    Look no one has your email address on here. I will ask seedy to delete your account.

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