Feel so pathetic asking considering last night. Still at work and panicking. Spoke stepchange earlier and I can’t refer my first payment. I feel so bad taking that amazing man the offer of paying my first month, and it’s my pride too. I don’t want raw cash, can happily give my client reference number. Honestly is that a bad thing to do? I’m not a bad guy, been feeling so happy today the help yesterday was so nice. Back to panic mode 🙁