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[De Deltafocus WANTED $12 Outlaw]

well I have been wanting to write this for a long time.

Im 30 years of age and been gambling now for 12 years. Since the age of 18

 

started off with just the slots in the bookies. and then of course routlette. I became addicted to the point that it controlled my very life and soul. Every single penny I would plough into the bookies and it was not even about the money anymore. It was the addiction the crave to go in there. Thousands and thousands of pounds and walk out like it didn’t bother me. But deep down eating away at my very centre.

 

Ive always worked. Never been out of work. Bit like the bookies. Lol

 

i stopped for arojnd 2 years since watching your videos @mr bandit. And they have really help to take the crave away. They took that feeling of playing and winning away. I just crave your videos now. Which is something positive. You really don’t understand how much your videos have helped me.

 

Sadly as an addciton is just that. It’s never gone but only at touching distance to raising its ugly head.

Pay day today. Early pay day before Christmas from work. 5 weeks till the next.

Pop into the local Gregs. What’s next door paddy power himself. I have fought the temptation for so long. Maybe the thought of just making that few extra ££. To get through to end of jan. maybe the thought of a few extra special presents not normally on offer.

Sadly I ended up losing my whole pay in 27 minutes flat.

If anyone is going through or has been through what I have or plays these games now. Please take some advice from the stories out there. There are millions. And please listen.  Stop now. Watch the bandits videos. Listen to him. Because boy them bookies will take you to hell and back and leave you standing to do it all again when your ready.

I literally have no idea what I will do now. How do I tell the family. Can I ? Surely I can’t. And I most properly wont. £38 to my name. And I need to buy Xmas presents and Xmas food. Oh and carry on for 5 weeks till pay day

This is not a feel sorry for me post. This is a me writing my feelings down and not being able to admit it for a very long time. Or even acknowledge my problem.

I hope someone can take away something from this in a positive.

Dom

[thunderball6 WANTED $272 Outlaw]

Very brave off you to post your story. And believe me your story prob helps somebody . I always think of these stories if I feel like re-depositing really hits home how dangerous gambling can be . Thank you for your story

[The Bandit WANTED $5,395 El Bandito]

Brave of you to post about how it is for so many mate, lots of people will resonate with that story and personally i have done it myself in the past many times, the temptation is just too great and you truly believe as you walk in the door that you CAN have just one £20, the sad truth is that you can’t and you have to be strong as fuck to remember you can’t, that’s from personal experience knowing that you can’t by the way, not a dig at you – with the best will in the world, the only way you are only having a one £20 note shot at it is if that spin wins.

I conquered my own demons in relation to bookmaker roulette spending by writing down every time i played on them for a whole year, regardless of outcome, i wrote it down. At the end of the year – i had also been writing down my gambling winnings and it was the first year of me doing that as my proper job – 2010, so my winnings/earnings, however you want to class them were £84,000 which fuck me, absolutely awesome, i have done it, i have cracked it, i can do this shit (this is a different form of gambling where i have a self created edge on the outcome, not mindless roulette feeding) and then….. the naughty column….. -£72,000 and that was ALL bookies, pretty much all roulette and that right there was enough for me to say right, that is fucking enough of that you dick and i’ve been very well behaved with them ever since. I have the odd blow out still and yes it still usually includes the entire contents of my wallet on that given day but 1 go every 6 months is a fuck ton better than what i was doing! Hopefully a pointer for others experiencing what i have written about, just try writing down all your results so you can reflect after a certain time period – it will shock the shit out of you and hopefully give you the motivation you need to stay out of those hell holes.

 

 

[Metplus3 WANTED $4 Outlaw]

Big respect for writing this post takes some guts to acknowledge having any type of problem. I’m sorry you’re now in this position but I really hope that this will be the push you need to kick it in for good.

I really would suggest talking to someone close to you, someone you trust and cares about you. I honestly think you need someone else in the know to truly get into recovery.

Don’t worry about Christmas it’s about more than what money you can spend it’s about being with the people you love.

We’ve all been there more than once doing our bollocks in trying to make a quick profit but it so rarely pays off.

Good luck with it all matey, stay away from the bookies! X

[De Deltafocus WANTED $12 Outlaw]

Thank you for your reply’s. It really means a lot and gives me a lot of hope that people have been there done that. It’s so strange to say. But hearing about your losses. Gives me some reflection on mine and that I can get through it.

 

Thanks for not shooting me down in flames guys and girls. And I will just start again. Square one and pick myself up.

 

 

[Quazzi WANTED $149 Outlaw]

When your at rock bottom (and know it) there’s only one way to go from there and that up.

Big kudos to you for admitting and realising your mistakes. Unfortunately you’ll have to take it on the chin and hopefully there wont be a next time.

I’ve been there, spending a months wage the same day it hits my account and having fuck all for the rest of the month. It took me a few of these fuck ups to realise the only person im hurting is myself (was a single bloke, no responsibilities at the time) which makes it even more of a shit time if you do have a wife/kids etc.

You’ve taken the first step. Don’t beat yourself up too much. Much love and have a merry christmas with the people closest to you.

[GIRTH32 WANTED $16 Outlaw]

Well  De what a brave post to write I have done exactly the same as you on numerous occasions and feel like shit after borrowing money of people just to get through the week never mind the month my brothers don’t speak to me now because I borrowed money from my mum but been 6 weeks for me on roulette and I feel good but the temptation is always there can’t wait till max stake is brought in to help everybody beat the addiction which isn’t visible,  also I say the bandit is helping me so much watching is videos and he tells us all about the perils of gambling no one else does like him m so good luck and hope it works out for you

[Slev82 WANTED $23 Outlaw]

Great of you to share this kind of experience! hope it ends up well for you and that you win over the demons in the end!

[Run187 WANTED $28 Outlaw]

Ask them and every bookies to exclude you and then email every online gaming site and ask for a lifetime ban with zero ways to reopen your account .bookies roulette machines are evil things designed to take all your money, not once have I heard the staff say oh I’m sorry I think you’ve lost enough time to go, as you would think having a rudy great when the fun stops sign they would recognise people playing past there normal limits. If I tried that in a pub and had ten pints, fall all over place try get another I be told to leave..

[Run187 WANTED $28 Outlaw]

GIRTH32 wrote:

Well  De what a brave post to write I have done exactly the same as you on numerous occasions and feel like shit after borrowing money of people just to get through the week never mind the month my brothers don’t speak to me now because I borrowed money from my mum but been 6 weeks for me on roulette and I feel good but the temptation is always there can’t wait till max stake is brought in to help everybody beat the addiction which isn’t visible,  also I say the bandit is helping me so much watching is videos and he tells us all about the perils of gambling no one else does like him m so good luck and hope it works out for you

If the corrupt cunts had not of changed the date it would be in effect.too much money in tax.same reason the won’t ban explodey wanker works, which should only be allowed on November the 5th at displays..

[Anonymous WANTED $81 Inactive]

You’re obviously a very intelligent guy and I respect the working attitude. Man does that shit bite. You work all month and have nothing. Every minute you spent in work you told yourself it was worth it because you got paid. When you are a fucking lunatic you never get paid, you are only ever on borrowed money. Everybody who participates in the capitalist consumer economy is a slave to the central bankers. For many of us there is little alternative, you work so those who depend on you have food on the table.

We all have a choice with spinning wheels and slot machines. Do we want to be slaves, yes or no? I was a slave for a long time until Spartacus set me free. Like the rest of you, I could work all month and blow the paycheck in one sitting. It makes you feel things. That’s the point of it and the means by which the wheels and machines hijack the biological interface. When you gamble you can largely forget about the outside world. Fuck how many times have I spent 12 hours at a machine only taking a break for a smoke or a piss? I couldn’t do that if I wasn’t gambling. If I wasn’t gambling I would be bitching to anybody who would listen about how starving I was or some other sob story. If I don’t eat within 7 hours of getting up, I will start to feel ill. I’ve no time to be ill or hungry or considerate of others. These notes don’t feed themselves and with the number of dodgy fuckers round here with their fake £20s, half of them won’t even work.

I would consider myself hardcore in that people used to stop their own gambling to watch me gamble. Not kids but adults jaws on the floor as I tried to get to the top of the gamble ladder. Nobody in their right mind would hit £512 on double or nothing, then hit it again, and then again. Who even does that? Mental people, that’s who. Three weeks wages on the flip of a coin.

When I had my first job the whole credit boom leading up to the dotcom bubble was happening. Some crazy cats at Capital One, RBS and HSBC decided to give me £30K of credit. Dear Lord, please tell them I only make £900/month after taxes and student loans. If I get even close to that limit, well, the minimum payments including interest at one stage were double my wages. So many overdrafts, so many credit cards lol. I blame the Rothschilds for that one but it took me like 7 years to pay it off. And pay it off I did in full. I had the interest frozen but instead of buying myself a car or saving for a deposit, I was a slave. Lucky I was young. And don’t be ridiculous, of course I still gambled on the same slots all the while. I am now over 30 and haven’t been in a bookies/casino/slot palace for, uh, literally longer than I can remember. Easily 8 years.

How you beat a thing like that is personal but The Bandit gives great advice there. If you take a whiff you’re going to take a bite, so don’t put yourself in those situations. And you can’t associate on a daily basis with fat bastards. They’re gonna drag you into KFC and that chicken is so fucking tasty. You know it is. Late one night, when you are at your most vulnerable, they will slap you round the face with 11 secret herbs and spices.

Personally I feel the only way to beat the wheels and slots is to replace them. Look I know this won’t be popular but I don’t see The Bandit or watching online slots as replacement therapy. If anything it’s like watching somebody eat. There’s a fat bastard in all of us screaming to be set free. I replaced casino-type gambling with poker. I’m much better at poker than slot machines. I’ve made 10 times more playing poker than I lost to HSBC and Capital One. It’s swapping one addiction for another. OK I’m not addicted like I am to smoking. I can easily abstain from slots or poker. Doesn’t mean I won’t think about them and when I watch YouTube videos I am most definitely thinking about gambling. I’ll hear no criticism of The Bandit though because he keeps it real, which is what many of us need to see. The Forum is a pretty interesting place too!

Long-term you will definitely start to grow out of it. It’s a bit like sex, unfortunately. When you are younger you want it every 5 minutes. Now every 3-4 days is good. You get old and your desires change from impulsive things to things you can sit on your lazy arse and think about. It will get easier as you get older but it will NEVER go away. It’s often said that gambling is worse than smoking or drugs because there is a “cure” or ready alternative for smoking and all drugs. There is no cure for gambling. You can go 10 years and at the flick of a switch (or maybe bottle of whiskey) turn into a complete degen. It’s fun. That’s why we do it. Drugs are fun. That’s why the drinking water in London tests positive for cocaine. Drugs will kill you though. Some faster than others. Gambling could kill you in a day or over a lifetime, and it will if you let yourself be a slave.

Sorry I went off on a bit of a preaching ramble there. The OP says their desire is that somebody takes something positive away from this. Well that’s me. I am positive that OP will find a way to fix things, not just for this Christmas but for the next one too.

[Fudwoods WANTED $53 Outlaw]

Gunner wrote:

You’re obviously a very intelligent guy and I respect the working attitude. Man does that shit bite. You work all month and have nothing. Every minute you spent in work you told yourself it was worth it because you got paid. When you are a fucking lunatic you never get paid, you are only ever on borrowed money. Everybody who participates in the capitalist consumer economy is a slave to the central bankers. For many of us there is little alternative, you work so those who depend on you have food on the table.

We all have a choice with spinning wheels and slot machines. Do we want to be slaves, yes or no? I was a slave for a long time until Spartacus set me free. Like the rest of you, I could work all month and blow the paycheck in one sitting. It makes you feel things. That’s the point of it and the means by which the wheels and machines hijack the biological interface. When you gamble you can largely forget about the outside world. Fuck how many times have I spent 12 hours at a machine only taking a break for a smoke or a piss? I couldn’t do that if I wasn’t gambling. If I wasn’t gambling I would be bitching to anybody who would listen about how starving I was or some other sob story. If I don’t eat within 7 hours of getting up, I will start to feel ill. I’ve no time to be ill or hungry or considerate of others. These notes don’t feed themselves and with the number of dodgy fuckers round here with their fake £20s, half of them won’t even work.

I would consider myself hardcore in that people used to stop their own gambling to watch me gamble. Not kids but adults jaws on the floor as I tried to get to the top of the gamble ladder. Nobody in their right mind would hit £512 on double or nothing, then hit it again, and then again. Who even does that? Mental people, that’s who. Three weeks wages on the flip of a coin.

When I had my first job the whole credit boom leading up to the dotcom bubble was happening. Some crazy cats at Capital One, RBS and HSBC decided to give me £30K of credit. Dear Lord, please tell them I only make £900/month after taxes and student loans. If I get even close to that limit, well, the minimum payments including interest at one stage were double my wages. So many overdrafts, so many credit cards lol. I blame the Rothschilds for that one but it took me like 7 years to pay it off. And pay it off I did in full. I had the interest frozen but instead of buying myself a car or saving for a deposit, I was a slave. Lucky I was young. And don’t be ridiculous, of course I still gambled on the same slots all the while. I am now over 30 and haven’t been in a bookies/casino/slot palace for, uh, literally longer than I can remember. Easily 8 years.

How you beat a thing like that is personal but The Bandit gives great advice there. If you take a whiff you’re going to take a bite, so don’t put yourself in those situations. And you can’t associate on a daily basis with fat bastards. They’re gonna drag you into KFC and that chicken is so fucking tasty. You know it is. Late one night, when you are at your most vulnerable, they will slap you round the face with 11 secret herbs and spices.

Personally I feel the only way to beat the wheels and slots is to replace them. Look I know this won’t be popular but I don’t see The Bandit or watching online slots as replacement therapy. If anything it’s like watching somebody eat. There’s a fat bastard in all of us screaming to be set free. I replaced casino-type gambling with poker. I’m much better at poker than slot machines. I’ve made 10 times more playing poker than I lost to HSBC and Capital One. It’s swapping one addiction for another. OK I’m not addicted like I am to smoking. I can easily abstain from slots or poker. Doesn’t mean I won’t think about them and when I watch YouTube videos I am most definitely thinking about gambling. I’ll hear no criticism of The Bandit though because he keeps it real, which is what many of us need to see. The Forum is a pretty interesting place too!

Long-term you will definitely start to grow out of it. It’s a bit like sex, unfortunately. When you are younger you want it every 5 minutes. Now every 3-4 days is good. You get old and your desires change from impulsive things to things you can sit on your lazy arse and think about. It will get easier as you get older but it will NEVER go away. It’s often said that gambling is worse than smoking or drugs because there is a “cure” or ready alternative for smoking and all drugs. There is no cure for gambling. You can go 10 years and at the flick of a switch (or maybe bottle of whiskey) turn into a complete degen. It’s fun. That’s why we do it. Drugs are fun. That’s why the drinking water in London tests positive for cocaine. Drugs will kill you though. Some faster than others. Gambling could kill you in a day or over a lifetime, and it will if you let yourself be a slave.

Sorry I went off on a bit of a preaching ramble there. The OP says their desire is that somebody takes something positive away from this. Well that’s me. I am positive that OP will find a way to fix things, not just for this Christmas but for the next one too.

Is that coming out in hardback or just paperback?

[Anonymous WANTED $81 Inactive]

Fudwoods wrote:

Gunner wrote:

You’re obviously a very intelligent guy and I respect the working attitude. Man does that shit bite. You work all month and have nothing. Every minute you spent in work you told yourself it was worth it because you got paid. When you are a fucking lunatic you never get paid, you are only ever on borrowed money. Everybody who participates in the capitalist consumer economy is a slave to the central bankers. For many of us there is little alternative, you work so those who depend on you have food on the table.

We all have a choice with spinning wheels and slot machines. Do we want to be slaves, yes or no? I was a slave for a long time until Spartacus set me free. Like the rest of you, I could work all month and blow the paycheck in one sitting. It makes you feel things. That’s the point of it and the means by which the wheels and machines hijack the biological interface. When you gamble you can largely forget about the outside world. Fuck how many times have I spent 12 hours at a machine only taking a break for a smoke or a piss? I couldn’t do that if I wasn’t gambling. If I wasn’t gambling I would be bitching to anybody who would listen about how starving I was or some other sob story. If I don’t eat within 7 hours of getting up, I will start to feel ill. I’ve no time to be ill or hungry or considerate of others. These notes don’t feed themselves and with the number of dodgy fuckers round here with their fake £20s, half of them won’t even work.

I would consider myself hardcore in that people used to stop their own gambling to watch me gamble. Not kids but adults jaws on the floor as I tried to get to the top of the gamble ladder. Nobody in their right mind would hit £512 on double or nothing, then hit it again, and then again. Who even does that? Mental people, that’s who. Three weeks wages on the flip of a coin.

When I had my first job the whole credit boom leading up to the dotcom bubble was happening. Some crazy cats at Capital One, RBS and HSBC decided to give me £30K of credit. Dear Lord, please tell them I only make £900/month after taxes and student loans. If I get even close to that limit, well, the minimum payments including interest at one stage were double my wages. So many overdrafts, so many credit cards lol. I blame the Rothschilds for that one but it took me like 7 years to pay it off. And pay it off I did in full. I had the interest frozen but instead of buying myself a car or saving for a deposit, I was a slave. Lucky I was young. And don’t be ridiculous, of course I still gambled on the same slots all the while. I am now over 30 and haven’t been in a bookies/casino/slot palace for, uh, literally longer than I can remember. Easily 8 years.

How you beat a thing like that is personal but The Bandit gives great advice there. If you take a whiff you’re going to take a bite, so don’t put yourself in those situations. And you can’t associate on a daily basis with fat bastards. They’re gonna drag you into KFC and that chicken is so fucking tasty. You know it is. Late one night, when you are at your most vulnerable, they will slap you round the face with 11 secret herbs and spices.

Personally I feel the only way to beat the wheels and slots is to replace them. Look I know this won’t be popular but I don’t see The Bandit or watching online slots as replacement therapy. If anything it’s like watching somebody eat. There’s a fat bastard in all of us screaming to be set free. I replaced casino-type gambling with poker. I’m much better at poker than slot machines. I’ve made 10 times more playing poker than I lost to HSBC and Capital One. It’s swapping one addiction for another. OK I’m not addicted like I am to smoking. I can easily abstain from slots or poker. Doesn’t mean I won’t think about them and when I watch YouTube videos I am most definitely thinking about gambling. I’ll hear no criticism of The Bandit though because he keeps it real, which is what many of us need to see. The Forum is a pretty interesting place too!

Long-term you will definitely start to grow out of it. It’s a bit like sex, unfortunately. When you are younger you want it every 5 minutes. Now every 3-4 days is good. You get old and your desires change from impulsive things to things you can sit on your lazy arse and think about. It will get easier as you get older but it will NEVER go away. It’s often said that gambling is worse than smoking or drugs because there is a “cure” or ready alternative for smoking and all drugs. There is no cure for gambling. You can go 10 years and at the flick of a switch (or maybe bottle of whiskey) turn into a complete degen. It’s fun. That’s why we do it. Drugs are fun. That’s why the drinking water in London tests positive for cocaine. Drugs will kill you though. Some faster than others. Gambling could kill you in a day or over a lifetime, and it will if you let yourself be a slave.

Sorry I went off on a bit of a preaching ramble there. The OP says their desire is that somebody takes something positive away from this. Well that’s me. I am positive that OP will find a way to fix things, not just for this Christmas but for the next one too.

Is that coming out in hardback or just paperback?

Just kindle and epub mate. Accepting pre-orders now.

[De Deltafocus WANTED $12 Outlaw]

Thanks for peoples kind responses.

 

I have excluded myself from from every bookies. I was hoping I would walk in and a tap on the shoulder would say not today mate.  But no such luck. And carried on. Even going to the counter every 28 seconds to reload and reload.

They must ask me to leave surely. I’ve been self excluded for years.

But no. They must see a man in sheer desperation when he’s loading thousands from his card. And you can tell when someone is chasing and chasing. And that human nature kicks in and says.

Maybe try another day mate. But all the keep asking is. Same again mate ?

[DEVIL4POSTER WANTED $55 Outlaw]

feel for you dude I’ve been there in the past more than enough times. My gambling started as young as 7 years old from playing games with the grandparents such cards some of which weren’t even traditional gambling games but we’d bet on it anyway, I think they saw it as a bit of fun and tried to teach me a lesson not to gamble but I loved playing. I progressed to fruit machines and upon joining high-school went to the local seaside amusements and although I wasn’t quite hooked, was too embarrassed to tell my parents I lost my pocket money so would lie, then by the next week/month I’d  have either forgotten the previous or shrugged it off and repeated my mistake. I soon found myself playing fruit machines all over the place and even though I used to eventually lose through greed (there were actually machines you could win on then) it didn’t affect my life to badly. I started going casino and losing larger amounts in shorter spaces of time , so I stopped going that worked well. I took out a loan for a holiday that I hadn’t fully paid for and gambled all £1500 of the loan away, in a dodgy arcade, then got a credit card so I could still go on holiday with my mates they offered me a limit of £10,000 I never wanted a credit card and always felt good I didn’t get one straight away at 18. I was 21 when I took it out with £2000 limit. I didn’t bother to pay it off instead I would carry on gambling while working two jobs about 60-80hrs a week and studying. I drained my savings account for £5,000 I took out overdrafts for all four of my banks and maxed them and back then if you left a penny in the account could go OD by £99.99. I also did credit card shuffle and maxed 5 credit card balances, I could of paid these off many times over but didn’t. people around me didn’t know I was 21 /23 and eventually asked for help from family they said it was my problem and they themselves didn’t really know what financially i could do at the time. by this point I owed about £14,000. I earn’t about varying amount of £500 to £2000 a month. I faced the problem head on and spoke to my banks and citizens advice and signed up with a debt management company and used all my wages to pay debt keeping only £20 a week for myself. The roulette FOBTS had been around for a few years but intially didn’t interest me I hated the idea of bookies, playing odds put in place by them and the smokey atmosphere (even though I smoke) and piss smelling people in there down on their luck, but one day I was meeting a friend for a game of pool and he said he was in the bookies, not wanting to go in i waited in the snooker hall for him for three hours eventually I went to get him I had to wait another 3hrs while he gambled I said I was going and he said just have a go on the machine like me, I couldn’t convince him to leave and explained that this was all my money for a week and we were ment to play pool so after its gone I ‘m going home. I put £10 in won £700 then lost the lot. put my last tenner in won £1500 then left. I had recently broke up from my then girlfriend(love of my life) and was emotionally very fragile. I won about £10,000 in three weeks and £39,000 over about 2/3 months by xmas I was broke and still in debt by about £5000. I became hooked on FOBTS thinking I could repeat my wins like before and I did quite a few times, but eventually gambling has taken me for about £500,000 and I’d a lot of this was taken by banks charges(which I managed to get some of back ) but it wasn’t worth what it was when I spent it. Iyou name it I’ve done it all kinds of gambling, G.A. ,psychiatrists , CBT. I hope things get better for you and if you ever feel anxious and want to gamble speak to someone about it. and one of the best bits of advice is to put barriers between you gambling and your money. I truly believe things will work out for you.

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