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2nd May 2019 at 9:01 pm #64246
I’m wondering how common my form of gambling is amongst fellow gamblers?
When I gamble, the concept of time and money become obsolete. I’ve regularly gambled for 18 hours straight and can’t remember a single cashout in the 16 years I’ve gambled. Countless times I’ve been up 10’s of 1000’s of pounds up only to lose it all back and more. It’s like the money becomes just fun tokens and a way to make me feel alive, nothing in life compares to that feeling of anticipation when a large sum of money is risked.
The only problem is, winning never really feels that great.. just a short term buzz. However, the end of session blues where the realisation of what you’ve lost kicks in is one of the worst feelings in life.
Is this how most people feel?
I am a problem gambler but I’ve never lost money I couldn’t afford and have plenty of savings behind me. Just wanted to gauge peoples thoughts on it really.
112nd May 2019 at 10:43 pm #64265I was similar to this but back then I was making 10,000nzd a week and yes it was through illegal things and yes I did get caught and yep I went to prison for just over 4years. Back then I would go up and down thousands gamble for 10-12hours straight didn’t care if I won or lost just lived in the moment.
prison changed my life I completely snapped out of it now days I do play but in moderation if I win $300 I withdraw and lock my account I only make 600$ a week working 9-5 but you Kno what I have never been happier. I have the love of my life supporting me and doing the right thing in life feels good.
Anyway that’s just a brief insight into my past but who wants to live in the past anyway the future is now so much more brighter.
2nd May 2019 at 10:59 pm #64269I was similar to this but back then I was making 10,000nzd a week and yes it was through illegal things and yes I did get caught and yep I went to prison for just over 4years. Back then I would go up and down thousands gamble for 10-12hours straight didn’t care if I won or lost just lived in the moment.
prison changed my life I completely snapped out of it now days I do play but in moderation if I win $300 I withdraw and lock my account I only make 600$ a week working 9-5 but you Kno what I have never been happier. I have the love of my life supporting me and doing the right thing in life feels good.
Anyway that’s just a brief insight into my past but who wants to live in the past anyway the future is now so much more brighter.
Punting drugs? They’re fucking expensive over there haha.
2nd May 2019 at 10:59 pm #64270I would agree that it is the buzz rather than winning or losing that gives you the ‘hit’ of dopamine that our brain needs to quell the craving. It’s the anticipation of the result rather than the actual result that we are addicted to. That is why we are very rarely able to cash out because we need to keep playing just to see what’s going to happen in the next spin.
Time passes without me even noticing while I am gambling. When reel king first came out on the arcade machines with £500 jackpot, I played it so much that when I went to bed at night I could still hear ‘ding ding ding ding…….<nothing>’ in my head even though I wasn’t even thinking about the machine!
2nd May 2019 at 11:00 pm #64271I gambled like that when I was 19-22, and I can still lose a shit loads these days but nothing like before. Got too much to pay for now haha.
3rd May 2019 at 5:30 am #64303Once it is in the machine money just becomes numbers on a screen and you get the buzz from watching it go up and down, the adrenalin rush from seeing a big win come in, the gradual onset of depression as you watch your numbers go down and the sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach as you realise that you have just lost £1k in the time it takes to watch an episode of GOT.
All these are emotions in a world that has become jaded, we are bombarded with information from all sides, TV, Radio etc and fewer and fewer things make us feel alive anymore. You watch a bombing on TV with hundreds dead, and you switch channels because their is an interesting documentary of whales on the other side. You see a huge car crash and you don’t empathise, you just video it to upload to you tube.
The gambling is close and personal to you, that’s why it excites, I’ve been through all those stages as we all have. When you know you have had enough is when you don’t even enjoy winning. You go into the bookies with £1k, win a couple of hundred pounds and feel sick to the stomach that you even considered risking that money in the first place.
And yet we go back, because it triggers something in the brain that makes you feel alive
3rd May 2019 at 11:31 am #64358Thanks for the replies, all very interesting and insightful.
I’m fully on board with the desensitisation of emotions due to the overload of sensory information. Very few things in life interest me, let alone excite me. It feels like everything I do now is just a watered down version of something I’ve previously done. If it’s not bigger, better or more exciting I feel like there’s no point in partaking.
I would say the only 4 things in life that bring me any form of excitement are, gambling, sex, food and music.. in that order. But nothing compares to watching that ball spin when you’ve got a large sum of money wagered on the result. If only you could replicate that feeling without risking the money, my god would you be rich!
3rd May 2019 at 1:09 pm #64368I would say the only 4 things in life that bring me any form of excitement are, gambling, sex, food and music.. in that orderI would go for music, sex, gambling, food in that order 🙂
3rd May 2019 at 1:11 pm #64370I would say the only 4 things in life that bring me any form of excitement are, gambling, sex, food and music.. in that orderI would go for music, sex, gambling, food in that order ?
Music before sex? ?
Your shaggin the wrong birds mate!
3rd May 2019 at 3:08 pm #64399Music before sex?
Your shaggin the wrong birds mate!
My music collection entertains me for hours on demand, it doesn’t expect conversation and I don’t have to take it shopping 🙂
4th May 2019 at 3:14 am #64454This is exactly what I go through when I play. Starts off I’m careful, I bet a bit, telling myself I’ll take it easy and not just waste the lot within minutes, then I get a hit and the adrenaline kicks in, then I loss or win more, eventually even if I’m up a few hundred or a few grand, it feels like nothing until I’ve lost the heap, then it feels like pure shit that I’ve lost what could have been twice my monthly salary.
Gambling addiction is a cruel mistress
4th May 2019 at 10:37 am #64492Yeah its the Buzz for me, i never win so yeah just the Buzz
…..then the inevatable spunk of the balance on BTG ?????
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