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[Ar Armybhoy WANTED $1 Outlaw]

Hi mate, is there any chance you could email me again please. I lost the original chain of emails and for various reasons I wouldn’t like to post what I’d like to say to you on here. Many thanks. Ryan.

[Ar Armybhoy WANTED $1 Outlaw]

Yeah of course I’d like that, anything to stop.me welling in my own head. Thankyou?

[Ar Armybhoy WANTED $1 Outlaw]

Well I’d of had a little more than 12miles to walk but yeah… Its incredible what resonates when you most need it.. And I certainly did then, you have a calmness to your voice I wonder if that’s a factor when the world’s at 100miles an hour.

I’m wary of saying to much and being identified but I’m in the Royal signals, I’m a comms system operator by trade and I’ve done over 8years..i was late to the party as I had a career previously. My day to day can be anything from painting stones white to please some belters inner demons to any range of satellite communications or just general army stuff and running about thinking I might actually be rambo… I’m not… But I do love my job and life.. Even now.. And now is tough.. Its tougher when it’s your own hand trying to kill you.. But I’m not on the canvas and I’m sure you’ve heard many worse tales.. The roller-coaster that is being a gambler.. ?

[Ar Armybhoy WANTED $1 Outlaw]

Hi, I’ve just signed up. I watch your videos on YouTube and I’m not really in the generation that follows things but I wanted to thank you.. As I’m sure many others are on here I’m a bad gambler and recently I’ve hit an all time low and basically blew my whole Xmas money bar enough to get home to Scotland. That is actually down to you, I place football bets and when winning as you know its the easiest thing in the world but when losing and trying to chase back losses its the devil’s own. I was on tilt and literally couldn’t think of a way out except doubling down what little I had left and going for broke…but I watch your vids in between bets and when I can’t take waiting on the result and I’m sorry I can’t actually tell you the exact video but you basically spoke of getting grief on here and explained how you manage to do what you do.. Followed by a speach about gambling what you can.. Not being a degenerate.. Which I am.. And then you mentioned family.. And for that simple speach I will now make it to Scotland to see my old man at Xmas whilst on leave from the military..  To put that in perspective please look up my age and profile and you’ll understand the extent of my hole.. I was ready to throw it all in and hopefully avoid the shame of not actually being able to give anything.. But to add to my ever growing mix in this my old man isn’t in great health and I literally was minutes from not seeing him for what I honestly believe could be his last Xmas alive. No doubt people or yourself will hopefully read this and wonder how an adult can get themselves in that situation but that’s gambling and no doubt many have suffered far worse. I had no idea how other to reach you except writing my tale here and to hopefully say thank you if you ever read this and to show you the power and scope your words have which given the modern Internet world were everyman and his dog have a voice I’m sure you may have suffered this both negatively and hopefully in a positive manner aswell. When I’m sitting with family at Xmas, and no doubt crawling with shame, I will be there and that actually counts for a lot.. That will be the memory.. Not the gifts.. The time..

 

And I owe that to you. So thank you.. From the bottom of my heart I truly thank you.

R.

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