That is really heavy, hope you are doing ok. Get in touch with the group’s that are detailed in yhe get help section if you need anyone for advice and support. You are not the only one who has been there. Hope things get better.
I have only ever managed a single 1000x win. I was playing with some money still in my account after the national when I was in uni. Gave Alaskan Fishing a go at £7 and a nearly full screen of wilds dropped. Only managed to withdraw £2000 but was very welcome as a student.
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