Mate I feel your pain, I too done exactly the same, was brilliant with my money but once the drink set in all I could think off was hitting the computer and the slots, worse thing about what I did was once I was up.. I kept thinking I more more more then the inevitable happened lost it all cleared my bank out, then woke up the next morning and realised what a fuck up I had made.. Rent not paid all my direct debits not going to be paid and generally felt like throwing the rope up, i borrowed money and kept doing the same, it was fucking terrible. So I opened up about it to friends and family and really felt relieved on the support I got. I done gamstop straight away and havnt gambled in over a year, Managed to get myself out of debt and I’m back to being myself again.. Feel sorry for ya mate as I know where your at.. But get back on track with your life, own up to your mistakes and mend them.. One thing I like to watch is the bandit and others gambling on YouTube. Its good when they are winning but most of the time it’s a lose, that’s what keeps me away from it… Good luck to you mate there is help out there if you want it
calcutta72