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  • 23rd October 2019 at 9:44 pm in reply to: Addictive gambling. Where does it end? #82033
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    First…English isn`t my mother language so please get easy on my mistakes

    I was gambling pretty hard for 7 years and was super close to become absolute wasted and down on the ground. Couldn`t pay my taxes and every stupid bill was….”postponed”. Then I met someone and just before I was going to be visited by some dept collector I came up with my gambling problem. With her I was able to see some help. I stayed with this for about 2 years. Every 2nd Monday evening we met and talked about that gambling stuff. Was it hard? Actually, only the first couple of days. After that, it was more like…yeah there was something in the past. And slowly but steady I was paying my depts and my bank account began to smile again.

    I was able to stay 4 years away from online casino. Yep..WAS….why? Well, sometimes life kicks you pretty hard in the hard…and the bottom and when you are on the ground….full throttle in the nuts. So, as stupid I was I started the same shit again, though I knew how terrible bad my life went. After one year – the same girl which saved me the last time, somehow she knew that there was something bad behind my fake smile and even we weren`t a couple anymore she came up with the right words and I went back to the psych and the group again.
    I am off gambling since nearly 2 years again. And this time it wasn`t even hard in the beginning not to play.
    But whats pretty worse (for me). Every time I hear some specific “pling” or cash noise in the TV or radio – Yep, I knew this sound, this from the slot “abc”.
    Financially, it wasn`t that bad cause I quit before it got worse. Actually I am doing pretty pretty fine and I can watch Bandits slot videos and just thinking. “man 60.000 are you nuts?”. I am fine with it.

    So, for me, it really helps me to know someone where I  can go to when I feel bad or even more when I have the urge to play. I installed a safety net for myself. I really dont know if I ever gamble again. Sure thing. I dont want to, but as said. Sometimes life gets you in your weakest moments.

     

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