Constructive criticism incoming. I’m a big fan of the videos and you come across as a good guy so it’s not a personal attack or anything.
I do the same thing for a living as yourself, I’m a sports trader. Before that I was a professional poker player. You know better than most about +EV gambling and having a sustainable edge which is why it amazes me you’re playing max stake on a -EV proposition. You know it can only end one way in the long term, however long it may take to see the long term results. I’ve never had the gambling bug and I only get involved in if I believe I have an edge so I can’t comment on what it feels like to have the urge to gamble but surely the smart move is to play smaller stakes now even though I realise the affiliate payments will cover a certain amount of your losses. You were £19k down on something that you cant beat long term. It feels like you’ve tricked yourself into thinking you’ve stumbled on a strategy to beat Reel King even if you wouldn’t admit it out loud (and it’s clear you know better). Becoming immune to stake size and losses is good when you have an edge, it allows you to take calculated risks, but is surely massively dangerous with slots.
As I say, the videos are great and I’m usually pissing myself watching them so it’s not a dig. I’m no one to tell you what to do with your money, maybe just reign it in for a couple of weeks and have a think about what you’re trying to achieve with max staking.
Of course if you’re a millionaire then disregard the above!