Your not the only one and definitely won’t be the last . Did the same thing got paid Thursday I thought I could drum up a little extra cash for Xmas , and yeah didn’t end well . It makes you feel sick to the stomach. It’s not the first time I’ve done my brains in and had to confess to family what’s going on a while back . Its hard to explain to people that don’t gamble what’s going on , as they don’t fully understand, saying that I don’t fully understand myself . Why do I gamble? I think it’s greed many time I’ve been up but just want that little bit more so reversed pending withdrawal . This should not be allowed ?. I think in the next 10 years shit will hit the fan regarding gambling and those people taking backhanders to promote gambling will be none existent. Keep your chin up and hopefully it will work out for you.