Interesting video to watch. I admire your honesty over the events of the session. It reminds me of the poker boom and myself. I used to complete a 12 hr night shift in one of the busiest A/E depts in the country and start playing. For me it was a second job almost. Started to win a bit then a bit more, to the point of thinking i could almost make a living out of it. Of course it came crashing down around my ears. Luckily like you it was my only my winnings that were lost. I pulled my self back and had to have a frank discussion with my other half and a compromise was made.
All good now, my ego and self esteem are at the same level of my bankroll ( reasonably comfortable).
Hope you build it back and continue with the videos.