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… But yeah, I agree I’m basically an idiot… 🙂

[giannix WANTED $10 Outlaw]

@eejit101 ty for your time mate, I agree with almost all that you said, there are things that I know like many of us ofc. I’m aware of my demons and I’m not proud of what I became. For the sake of discussion I just want to clarify two things 😉

1) my monthly income is not covering anymore the debts I have (bank, loans) and the interests my debts are carrying are ridiculously high. This month, for the very first time I wasn’t able to pay the monthly fees. And those interests are accumulating and raising. My December’s 1k (more or less) are already gone now, the January salary won’t be enough either, ofc. How can I start from 0? I’d really would, honestly… I won’t say I’m cured from gambling… I just say I’m at the point where I just lost appetite for gambling… I got bored

2)my wife isn’t the most beautiful or smarter women in the world and I’m not R. R. (not anymore, lol). But would be very hard for me to find another women not to fk but to stay by my side for 20 years now and suffering from all the stupid things I’ve done more than you can imagine. But that’s another, longer, sade story 😉

Ty again for your good words 😉

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Poker could be an option but it also requires a bankroll and, above all, a state of mind I don’t have right now. I was thinking to autoexclusion of course but, on the other hand, that would mean that I’d block my only real hope to get back to the floating line :/ Anyway, I think I cried enough, sorry for bothering you all here… I guess this was supposed to be a happier section 🙂 I kinda regret now that I shared this but well, it’s done, there’s nothing I can do about it but to apologize 🙂 Cheers :/

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Jamhoody wrote:

giannix wrote:

Well, shite time, here I am… 2020 started bad for me. I was “smart” enough to gamble money that I shouldn’t have and now I’m lost, toasting my brain to find a way out. Nobody to blame but me, ofc. It’s January 1st and I’m already in big trouble, what better start you could ask for? I sincerely hope the year started better for all of you guys… Have a great new year, best wishes for all of you!

not good that giannix my gambling has been bad for months now and i mean bad ive not hit a bonus in 6 weeks i shit you not i dont deposit huge amounts i stick to £100 a time but it adds up i tell myself ive lost before i depo but it gets boring when you dont have a gameplay might be time for a mini break for us both hope you get something sorted and use this example for next time you go to re load were all losers at the end of it all just some more then others mate  lets hope the rest of the years is kinder for u

Ty Jamhoody, I hope 2020 will turn better and I’m sure it will cause I’m already touching the bottom and honestly I can’t get more punches anymore :/

I don’t deposit more than 100 € either but I got tilted and I only stopped when all money were gone. :/ December was extremely cruel with me (luck wise) and now January just killed me :/ I don’t know… I don’t even know what to say and do right now, I guess I’m the “I hate myself” phase of the life, lol

I just posted here cause I just felt the need to share with someone and I knew there are people here that will understand.

Best wishes for all of you 🙂

[giannix WANTED $10 Outlaw]

Well, shite time, here I am… 2020 started bad for me. I was “smart” enough to gamble money that I shouldn’t have and now I’m lost, toasting my brain to find a way out. Nobody to blame but me, ofc. It’s January 1st and I’m already in big trouble, what better start you could ask for? I sincerely hope the year started better for all of you guys… Have a great new year, best wishes for all of you!

[giannix WANTED $10 Outlaw]

I’m at work right now, just wondering how you’re doing  😉 miss your videos

 

[giannix WANTED $10 Outlaw]

Never in doubt, lol 😉 nice comeback

[giannix WANTED $10 Outlaw]

Never in doubt 😉

[giannix WANTED $10 Outlaw]

carpe diem 😉

 

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