Your definitely not the only one. Very similar i started in the 80’s on seaside slots and tbh have never stopped. At one point unable to go 24 hours without having a play. Pubs service stations arcades bookies then online you name it i couldn’t walk past one. Even when i won it would go back the next day. Fortunately I’m more chilled now and play only a fraction as much as i used to do. I know where your coming from I’d sleep and wake thinking about nothing else. I promise those thoughts will gradually reduce but they will never go away completely. Good luck
Yep very hard to bonus and as you say when you do get one its a tilt!! Shame as it is a good game to play. I threw 600 spins at it with no bonus yesterday. 🙁