Brave of you to post about how it is for so many mate, lots of people will resonate with that story and personally i have done it myself in the past many times, the temptation is just too great and you truly believe as you walk in the door that you CAN have just one £20, the sad truth is that you can’t and you have to be strong as fuck to remember you can’t, that’s from personal experience knowing that you can’t by the way, not a dig at you – with the best will in the world, the only way you are only having a one £20 note shot at it is if that spin wins.
I conquered my own demons in relation to bookmaker roulette spending by writing down every time i played on them for a whole year, regardless of outcome, i wrote it down. At the end of the year – i had also been writing down my gambling winnings and it was the first year of me doing that as my proper job – 2010, so my winnings/earnings, however you want to class them were £84,000 which fuck me, absolutely awesome, i have done it, i have cracked it, i can do this shit (this is a different form of gambling where i have a self created edge on the outcome, not mindless roulette feeding) and then….. the naughty column….. -£72,000 and that was ALL bookies, pretty much all roulette and that right there was enough for me to say right, that is fucking enough of that you dick and i’ve been very well behaved with them ever since. I have the odd blow out still and yes it still usually includes the entire contents of my wallet on that given day but 1 go every 6 months is a fuck ton better than what i was doing! Hopefully a pointer for others experiencing what i have written about, just try writing down all your results so you can reflect after a certain time period – it will shock the shit out of you and hopefully give you the motivation you need to stay out of those hell holes.
